- Jaymee Joaquin wrote in her blog about being diagnosed again with cancer
- She revealed that the second diagnosis hit her worse mentally and emotionally than the first one
- The former actress also admitted that she suffered from depression because of it
Jaymee Joaquin opened up about being diagnosed with cancer for the second time.
KAMI learned that she admitted to getting depressed because of the recurrence.
She also detailed in her blog www.jaymeewins.com that the second diagnosis hit her harder emotionally and mentally than the first one.
“I had high hopes for 2019. I claimed that it will be my time to soar meaning I will finally build the life I've always envisioned and chase after my American dreams passionately. I claimed and declared that my health will be at its prime and nothing will stand in my way.
“But as I did my pet scan early this year, I heard the most devastating news that any breast cancer survivor would never want to hear... my cancer has come back…
“Please don't dare pity me or pray over like I'm in some deathbed about to depart as it's a VERY early recurrence and it's HIGHLY treatable. Bottom line, I'm STILL gonna live. But of course, knowing that my biggest fear manifested to life hit me so hard that I fell on a very deep depression and anxiety.
“Receiving a second cancer diagnosis is way worst than the first. For a time, I was beating myself up a lot harder than ever thinking this was all my fault. I thought maybe I didn't take care of myself well enough. Maybe I made wrong decisions during my first treatment. Maybe I was secretly doubting my body and its capacity to heal in contrast with the WINNER image I have on social media. Maybe I didn't trust my medical team completely. Maybe I didn't pray to God hard enough. Maybe this, maybe that.
“And this is why I disconnected from social media for awhile… I was feeling more and more hopeless and sicker by the minute and was entertaining thoughts of just giving up to get this drama over with.
“For a time, I couldn't look at myself in the mirror without breaking down and wondering if I will ever get through this again. Luckily, my treatment right now only involves a stronger hormone therapy so no chemo, surgery or radiation in the horizon. That gave me a sense of relief that I won't go under the knife or lose my pretty short curls which took me a year to grow out,” she wrote.
She also revealed how her therapist helped her cope with the bad news.
“The turning point happened when my speech therapist who was treating me for my cracked voiced looked at me in the eye at the peak of my depression and said with full conviction, ‘I know you can beat this, Jaymee. You are strong and determined. I believe in you. I really do. You got this. Believe in yourself like how I believe in you.’
“Since that day, I started to look at myself in the mirror every damnday saying out loud to my reflection, ‘I believe in you. God is with you. Jaymee WINS again. You are healed. You are strong. You are loved. You are living long and WINNING strong. You got this,’” she explained.
Jaymee Joaquin is a Filipina actress and model. She got diagnosed with cancer in 2016 and went to remission in 2017. Earlier this year, she was diagnosed with cancer for the second time.
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