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If you think about it – depression is like a TV series. First you get some episodes here and there. But before you know it, the episodes aren’t going away. They’re not episodes anymore because they don’t just recur once in a while. Your episodes are no longer pilots of various series, but a season of long journey.
Think of it this way: you’re the actor – playing a role on a TV series. Your appearances in the series are a lot like how you’re exposed to depression. You start off as an extra, getting a few episodes here and there. Then once you climb the ladder enough, you’re bound to be a regular cast member on the show. You’re in it for a whole long season – and maybe even tied to a series. Are you ready for it?
It’s Only the Beginning
I’m not quite sure how other depressives refer to their bouts of depression. But I personally call them episodes. Episodes are those days where you find yourself crying the whole day, even how much you fight or repress it. You still you find yourself with swollen eyes, a headache, and a backlog of work.
Episodes don’t happen daily or weekly. That’s the only difference with a TV show. So if you have a TV show, called Stacy’s Shenanigans, your episodes happen abruptly – so there’s no telling when they’re coming. The thing is, it really creeps up on you. Like, at first you get them once every few months. Then after a few months, they happen on a per month basis and then it just keeps narrowing the gap from there.
Yes, the storm is coming. You see the heavy charcoal gray clouds in the sky, about to release its wrath, it’s revenge on you for having too much of a good life. Stacy’s Shenanigans is about to premiere – and you’re about to be the star.
Shine Like A Star
It is true – being a star isn’t all that nice, especially in this case. You’re starring in your first season. This time around, your episodes occur more frequently. It could be once or twice a week, or a full-length never-ending every day. Are you ready, Stacy?
It’s going to be a long, hard ride. You’ll want to give up at some point, but remember: this is only a storm. You can survive so long as you don’t let it get the best of you. Instead of succumbing to it, why don’t you fight it?
Who says you can’t survive one season? It’s called Stacy’s Shenanigans, and you’re Stacy (if you haven’t figured that out yet). They can’t kill off their own star after one season.
There Is A Way To Come Out Alive
Depression may be inevitable, but that doesn’t mean it can’t be cured. I have met some people who have bravely cured it – it’s really just how you take it on. I haven’t fully survived it myself (obviously), but that doesn’t mean I’ve given up on achieving the same success.
The thing is, you know it’s a battle with yourself. In spite of what your mind is telling you, why don’t you do the opposite of what it’s telling you and fight it? There are two ways out: Friends or Days of Our Lives.
You can turn out like Friends – which lasted 10 seasons strong. It may have been grueling, but in the end – they met their fate and had a good life after that. All the ten seasons helped them grow and reached the time when things were supposed to be.
Just like that, you might just have several seasons you need to punch in. But those seasons are meant to teach you, the same way they did to the stars of that show. Think of it as Jedi training – you need to serve an apprenticeship before you can get to your happily ever after.
Friends had a good run, and they took the high road by letting themselves live their own happy lives before the show exhausted its run on them. After all, sometimes it’s better to leave something behind while it’s still good – once you know you’ve run its course.
But It’s In Your Hands
On the other hand, you can end up like Days of Our Lives, which has been airing for like five decades and has 22 seasons (over 12,000 episodes) under its belt. Ideally, this is the show you don’t want to turn into. And I’m sure you don’t want to end up like a depressing American soap opera.
So instead of letting the show rule your life and let those “producers” kill Stacy off in her own show, why don’t you take the reigns, and be the one to leave it? That’s the daily struggle isn’t it – whether you just wait for a higher being to kill you off in this thing called life or take control and actually live your own life.
It’s true when they say life is what you make of it – so why should you let this one thing called depression ruin your life for you? Why are you letting it win? Like what Brad Pitt so popularly said in Troy, “Immortality - take it, it’s yours!”